[Well, it's not her real name, apparently, but she is a friend still, right? Things are more complicated after his escape from Nibelheim, but she did let him and Cloud go twice. There's something between them, something that isn't indifference, or just straight-up hostility. She put her job, maybe even her life, on the line for him.
But then she also told Zack something he probably never needed to know, or at least wasn't her secret to tell, and that sits wrong with him. Sure, Aerith doesn't seem terribly upset, but that's not the point.
Zack grows upset, though, the more he thinks about another detail she went over really quickly just a few minutes ago.]
Tseng.
[He almost growls the name, one of his hands finding the sheets beside them and grasping them in a fist.]
I trusted him, why...
[His head falls to her shoulder as he tries to find his words.]
I told him I was counting on him to keep you safe before I left. Why would he hand you over to Hojo?
[But as he feels Aerith shift, he collects himself and sits up straighter, too, though his eyes are wet. He looks at her, watches as she still manages to smile through all of this, and when she touches his cheek, he feels...a little calmer. She's always had this effect. Maybe it's because she's an Ancient or whatever. That doesn't matter. She's just always been able to help him feel human again after seeing the disaster that Shinra and SOLDIER have become. After Angeal died. After anything, really. This isn't any different.
The pain still exists, but with her it's easier to manage.]
[ She knows the name, but it's one she hasn't heard in a while. It doesn't sit right with her either. Knowing someone let something like that slip to Zack while she's unaware is a weird feeling, and she's dealing with enough of those already - but that doesn't mean she regrets it any less when she pulls away after he settles his head against her. ]
He... Tseng's known me since I was a little girl. His job was always to take me back to Shinra.
[ It's strange to imagine Zack and Tseng knowing one another well enough for Zack to trust him with a promise like that, still, she can't pretend that it didn't wound her a little when Tseng finally made good on that intention. Again, the thought of how much Zack has missed comes back around to settle at the forefront of her thoughts, giving the smile she tries to give him a sadder edge, her cheeks damp from the tears she's trying her best not to shed. ]
I had to get Barret's daughter out of Sector 7 before they dropped the plate on everyone, so I traded myself for a ride.
[ Which makes it sound more calculated and less like Tseng had turned up at the worst moment imaginable and put her back against the wall. She doesn't want to make telling Zack the truth any harder than it has to be, she also doesn't want to think that even Tseng would willingly hand her over to Hojo if he knew what was in store for her there.
Aerith takes a deep breath, forcing herself to push all that aside as she reaches for Zack and tugs him back to lie down with her. Her hand rests on his cheek again after she settles on her side, her gaze lingering on his face. ]
We'll be alright Zack. [ She doesn't know why exactly, but something in her tells her they both need to hear that. ]
[The fact that Zack didn't seem to know anything about...anything really angers him. The more he learns, not just from Aerith, but about Shinra in general, the more he feels like he's just been a pawn this whole time. Not him specifically, but anyone in SOLDIER or anyone who works for Shinra who isn't a department head or is considered actually important. The more he learns, the more he mentally kicks himself for being so oblivious and for so long.
He shakes his head.]
The next time I see Tseng, I'm gonna deck him so hard. I can't...I can't believe this.
[And then, in a smaller voice - ]
...I never should've left.
[It's all hindsight, of course. Things didn't feel so dire back then. Aerith wasn't in any real danger, or so he thought. Nibelheim was supposed to be an easy enough mission, at least for people like him and Sephiroth. Just take out some monsters and get back home. He had survived worse without a problem.
He doesn't put up a fight when Aerith tugs him to lie down next to her. He probably wouldn't fight her on anything.]
I'm not worried about us. Not really.
[He gives a short laugh, though it doesn't do much for his overall mood.]
I mean, you haven't, like, punched me yet.
[But there's still so much for him to get cleared up and he props himself up on an elbow.]
This Barret guy. His daughter. Did you get her out? And...did they really drop a plate? They didn't, right? That's...that's insane.
[Doing questionable scientific experiments is one thing. Actually putting countless civilian lives in danger is entirely different. Surely even Shinra wouldn't cross that line. He wants to believe. He needs to believe.]
[ The change in his voice, the way sorrow and regret begin to weigh at what's otherwise a joyful noise makes the ache in her chest sharpen, her arms wrapping around him extra-tightly when he finally climbs onto her bed with her. Aerith's fingers smooth through Zack's hair, shifting herself so that she can guide him to rest his head against her shoulder, a mirthless chuckle escaping when he mentions punching Tseng in the face.
She's never been the sort to advocate for violence - unless the person was scum like Corneo, but she might find it hard to tell Zack to stop if Tseng showed up and he took a swing at the guy - at least at first.
Ducking her head to hide her face in his hair she scoots closer, cozying up to him with a heavy sigh before he moves to prop himself up on an elbow and she rolls onto her back to better look up at his face, happy to be able to stare at him although the grave look on her face wouldn't suggest as much. ]
Marlene? Yeah, she's with my mom now. [ Her expression darkens even more when he asks about the plate, a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach appearing along with the realization that out of everything, this might be the worst thing she has to tell him. ]
Yeah, they did. I know my friends tried to fight them off, but the Turks got it to collapse anyway. There wasn't anything I could do, I was already being taken back to Hojo's lab when it happened.
[Okay. Okay, this girl - Marlene, apparently - is safe. That must make things a lot easier for Aerith to deal with. At least she was able to help out with that.
But the relief it gives Zack doesn't last long. They dropped a plate. They actually dropped a plate. Zack doesn't have family in Midgar so it's not as if anyone he really knows was in danger of such a heinous act, but it's still just so...wrong. That's not a strong enough word.
Zack exhales and falls back to the bed, turning to lie on his back with an arm draped over his eyes. It's probably because he hasn't experienced it or because the only person really important to him in Midgar outside of any SOLDIER friends is Aerith, but the shock doesn't seem to kick in. It's still horrible, of course, and he can't believe that someone decided to kill civilians like that. Civilians!]
What is Shinra doing? People live there.
[When he left home to join SOLDIER, he really just wanted to become a hero, like Sephiroth, like no one else could ever become in Gongaga. How did so much change in such a short amount of time?
When he finally pulls his arm away again, he breathes in and looks back at Aerith.]
Hey. You're just one person. You wouldn't have been able to stop them even if you were there.
They wanted to blame my friends for it, I hope it's not working.
[ It's not like sticking around to find out was an option after their confrontation with Sephiroth and the madness that followed before and after. Aerith frowns watching Zack flop onto his back and throw an arm over his eyes. ]
I told you we would need the ice cream more now.
[ The words feel weak when she says them, but she's doing what she can to try and brighten up what's undoubtedly a very dismal conversation.
She tries for a reassuring smile when he looks back at her and shifts closer, throwing her arms around his middle and hugging him close. ]
[So. Looking for a scapegoat for something Shinra themselves caused. Which means it has to be so heinous that they need to cover it up. Whatever 'it' is.
Zack just can't imagine going so far.
But there isn't anything he can do about it while he's here, and he would tell Aerith the same thing. So he holds her close and presses his face into her hair, breathing her in and trying to keep himself calm.]
It's okay. I mean, it's not, but it's not your fault. I'm just glad you're safe.
[He kisses the top of her head.]
We can still go get that ice cream, just...let's stay like this for a little while first, okay?
[ This conversation has left her feeling raw, but she's grateful that everything is out in the open. Everything is so new and strange that she doesn't let herself think about it but, if she gets to bring him back with her somehow, it's good that he knows what he's walking into, and it's a weight off her shoulders that he knows the truth about her too.
Her eyes shut briefly, relishing the kiss he plants on the top of her head while her arms tighten around him and keep him as close as she can get him like this. ]
We haven't been together in so long if you wanted to spend the whole week like this I don't think I could complain.
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Date: 2023-04-15 04:59 am (UTC)Yeah, a...friend. Her name's Cissnei.
[Well, it's not her real name, apparently, but she is a friend still, right? Things are more complicated after his escape from Nibelheim, but she did let him and Cloud go twice. There's something between them, something that isn't indifference, or just straight-up hostility. She put her job, maybe even her life, on the line for him.
But then she also told Zack something he probably never needed to know, or at least wasn't her secret to tell, and that sits wrong with him. Sure, Aerith doesn't seem terribly upset, but that's not the point.
Zack grows upset, though, the more he thinks about another detail she went over really quickly just a few minutes ago.]
Tseng.
[He almost growls the name, one of his hands finding the sheets beside them and grasping them in a fist.]
I trusted him, why...
[His head falls to her shoulder as he tries to find his words.]
I told him I was counting on him to keep you safe before I left. Why would he hand you over to Hojo?
[But as he feels Aerith shift, he collects himself and sits up straighter, too, though his eyes are wet. He looks at her, watches as she still manages to smile through all of this, and when she touches his cheek, he feels...a little calmer. She's always had this effect. Maybe it's because she's an Ancient or whatever. That doesn't matter. She's just always been able to help him feel human again after seeing the disaster that Shinra and SOLDIER have become. After Angeal died. After anything, really. This isn't any different.
The pain still exists, but with her it's easier to manage.]
...Yeah.
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Date: 2023-04-16 04:01 am (UTC)He... Tseng's known me since I was a little girl. His job was always to take me back to Shinra.
[ It's strange to imagine Zack and Tseng knowing one another well enough for Zack to trust him with a promise like that, still, she can't pretend that it didn't wound her a little when Tseng finally made good on that intention. Again, the thought of how much Zack has missed comes back around to settle at the forefront of her thoughts, giving the smile she tries to give him a sadder edge, her cheeks damp from the tears she's trying her best not to shed. ]
I had to get Barret's daughter out of Sector 7 before they dropped the plate on everyone, so I traded myself for a ride.
[ Which makes it sound more calculated and less like Tseng had turned up at the worst moment imaginable and put her back against the wall. She doesn't want to make telling Zack the truth any harder than it has to be, she also doesn't want to think that even Tseng would willingly hand her over to Hojo if he knew what was in store for her there.
Aerith takes a deep breath, forcing herself to push all that aside as she reaches for Zack and tugs him back to lie down with her. Her hand rests on his cheek again after she settles on her side, her gaze lingering on his face. ]
We'll be alright Zack. [ She doesn't know why exactly, but something in her tells her they both need to hear that. ]
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Date: 2023-04-21 07:08 am (UTC)He shakes his head.]
The next time I see Tseng, I'm gonna deck him so hard. I can't...I can't believe this.
[And then, in a smaller voice - ]
...I never should've left.
[It's all hindsight, of course. Things didn't feel so dire back then. Aerith wasn't in any real danger, or so he thought. Nibelheim was supposed to be an easy enough mission, at least for people like him and Sephiroth. Just take out some monsters and get back home. He had survived worse without a problem.
He doesn't put up a fight when Aerith tugs him to lie down next to her. He probably wouldn't fight her on anything.]
I'm not worried about us. Not really.
[He gives a short laugh, though it doesn't do much for his overall mood.]
I mean, you haven't, like, punched me yet.
[But there's still so much for him to get cleared up and he props himself up on an elbow.]
This Barret guy. His daughter. Did you get her out? And...did they really drop a plate? They didn't, right? That's...that's insane.
[Doing questionable scientific experiments is one thing. Actually putting countless civilian lives in danger is entirely different. Surely even Shinra wouldn't cross that line. He wants to believe. He needs to believe.]
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Date: 2023-04-24 02:15 am (UTC)She's never been the sort to advocate for violence - unless the person was scum like Corneo, but she might find it hard to tell Zack to stop if Tseng showed up and he took a swing at the guy - at least at first.
Ducking her head to hide her face in his hair she scoots closer, cozying up to him with a heavy sigh before he moves to prop himself up on an elbow and she rolls onto her back to better look up at his face, happy to be able to stare at him although the grave look on her face wouldn't suggest as much. ]
Marlene? Yeah, she's with my mom now. [ Her expression darkens even more when he asks about the plate, a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach appearing along with the realization that out of everything, this might be the worst thing she has to tell him. ]
Yeah, they did. I know my friends tried to fight them off, but the Turks got it to collapse anyway. There wasn't anything I could do, I was already being taken back to Hojo's lab when it happened.
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Date: 2023-04-25 04:46 am (UTC)But the relief it gives Zack doesn't last long. They dropped a plate. They actually dropped a plate. Zack doesn't have family in Midgar so it's not as if anyone he really knows was in danger of such a heinous act, but it's still just so...wrong. That's not a strong enough word.
Zack exhales and falls back to the bed, turning to lie on his back with an arm draped over his eyes. It's probably because he hasn't experienced it or because the only person really important to him in Midgar outside of any SOLDIER friends is Aerith, but the shock doesn't seem to kick in. It's still horrible, of course, and he can't believe that someone decided to kill civilians like that. Civilians!]
What is Shinra doing? People live there.
[When he left home to join SOLDIER, he really just wanted to become a hero, like Sephiroth, like no one else could ever become in Gongaga. How did so much change in such a short amount of time?
When he finally pulls his arm away again, he breathes in and looks back at Aerith.]
Hey. You're just one person. You wouldn't have been able to stop them even if you were there.
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Date: 2023-04-25 09:35 pm (UTC)[ It's not like sticking around to find out was an option after their confrontation with Sephiroth and the madness that followed before and after. Aerith frowns watching Zack flop onto his back and throw an arm over his eyes. ]
I told you we would need the ice cream more now.
[ The words feel weak when she says them, but she's doing what she can to try and brighten up what's undoubtedly a very dismal conversation.
She tries for a reassuring smile when he looks back at her and shifts closer, throwing her arms around his middle and hugging him close. ]
I wish I had better things to tell you.
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Date: 2023-04-26 02:47 am (UTC)Zack just can't imagine going so far.
But there isn't anything he can do about it while he's here, and he would tell Aerith the same thing. So he holds her close and presses his face into her hair, breathing her in and trying to keep himself calm.]
It's okay. I mean, it's not, but it's not your fault. I'm just glad you're safe.
[He kisses the top of her head.]
We can still go get that ice cream, just...let's stay like this for a little while first, okay?
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Date: 2023-04-26 03:08 am (UTC)Her eyes shut briefly, relishing the kiss he plants on the top of her head while her arms tighten around him and keep him as close as she can get him like this. ]
We haven't been together in so long if you wanted to spend the whole week like this I don't think I could complain.